Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Hard and Fast

The District and Circle
Are filled with prepubescents tonight –
Awkward, oblivious & nervous
In their youth.

And am I not a little envious?

Well,
Happiness is fleeting,
Unless it comes
Once in a while.

I’ve envied passers-by more
When they were with friends
Than when they were with lovers.

Your lover’s not my lover
After all.
Though she may share the same body
As mine once did,
Her face is somehow different.
And mine is waiting behind some other visage now –
By good grace, I hope,
Less mercurial than before.

There’s a reliability –
Sweet Reliability! –
In the laughter that has no other requirement
Than that you
(and it could only have been you)
Said that:
When people value not
That you have been funny,
But that you have been
You.

These friends I see,
Unknowingly across from me,
May not last,
But their memories will endure –
Through thick and thin,
Sickness and health,
Richer and poorer –

Hard and fast.

Monday, August 12, 2013

The 17:00

Fair Waverley, nestled in the ‘Burgh,

‘Neath castles and bridges,
A hidden gateway to the carnival above.

Fair Waverley sends us trickling, then trundling, then hurtling
Into the views of cliffs and forests of fir
And past rivers and seas quietly rippling.

Stirrings of magic here,
In the age-old glacially sculpted hills.
Wisps in the trees?
Endless childhoods of boundless imagination,
Flit past the eye as the train gathers speed
And a stirring brews with this quickening -
The heart rushing to keep pace.

Then, ‘cross the Tweed,
Into the elegant North,
The proud North,
The grand North:
Forged by its sons and its daughters
Into a breathing Turner,
A multi-dimensional Constable,
Replete with castles and cathedrals of stone and steel.

Teeming Newcastle gives way to stately Durham,
And vistas tumble forth like dreams
As the Lark ascends.

Onwards! Southwards!
Towards Summer’s heat -
Away from Summer’s sun.

Then comes the lingering warning.
Yorksire is undulating beauty, from Godliness to grimness,
As men spurned the divine for devilry,
Senselessly building Drax, Goole and Donny.

The clouds are gifted a corona of early evening sun,
And the violent, vivacious land revels below – majestic to the brim –
But steadily, imperceptibly declining.

The Midlands: pleasant monotony,
Dimpled and disturbed by small peaks and troughs of homes and hills.
A tame, mellow pastoral symphony –
Troubled by the rushing onward,
Onward,
To the metropolis.

As it draws closer, the dull accedes.
Dull, dull, flat, flat, flat,
Dull Anglia.
Flat Anglia.
Anglia – a melody of nothing
Save the cacophonous spouts of man’s unimagination.

And dull Anglia’s “jewel”: direst Peterborough.
Plastic, grey, vividless.
City of dark in the light.
Scented with all pervading hopelessness.

Saved by the sunset and the moon was Anglia.
Crescent glaring down on the Rothko painted death of day.
Divinity saving humans from men.

Then dark outside, and nothing to be seen, until,

Suddenly, Finsbury,

Before rolling stock slows respectfully for Islington,
So as not to disturb the middle classes,
Or clandestine, ill-fated political deals.

And finally grand but homely King’s Cross, and journey’s near-end.

What a vibrant mausoleum this is.
Filled with memories, once sweet, now bitter –
Or perhaps now mercifully bittersweetened
By the calming truth of life’s contradictions accepted.

The lark has now descended,
And a gently smoking saxophone teases through the night,
Under the looming lights, beneath the glass and steel.

Where are the stones and the hills?
Left some hours behind and
Buried beneath some years ago.

Only painted memories live here now
And, when time comes, merciful portals of escape,
To a splendour too crudely spent,
To a wealth that cannot be measured,
Beyond the accountant’s towers.

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Equinox

Blue light on the leaves that fall
As they twist and turn on the breeze.
Past glories sadly admitting to present beauty.
The descent a slow and final dance.

Where is the heat of the sun?
Only remembered, in the ghostly forest –
Grey overhead and brown underfoot.
The promise is whispered in the branches
Of new roses coming into bloom –

But not now.
For when the sun breaks through bright
It shines cold on the skin.

Spark
My head turns to catch it,
But it is vanished in the trees.

There! Again!
This time it is truly glimpsed –
A floating ember slowly turning to flame,
Before flitting to nothing between the evergreens.

Again! Again! Again!
Like a will o’the wisp
And ever swifter.
It smokes into a blaze and disappears –
Dances through the forest
Abandons all paths.

It gains a voice,
Resonates with song
Echoing off the trees.

And, imperceptibly, the flame billows into form.
She glances over her shoulder –
Laughing, teasing with delight.
She promises everything.
She guarantees nothing.

Growing.
Consuming all sight.
And all the while vanishing,
And reappearing.
She lights all.
Devours none.

Then

Fades into song alone.
Leaving all alone
With nothing but fragments of music on the wind.
And the dimmed day upon the fallen leaves.

Monday, July 22, 2013

The Unenviable Life Prescribed

Ignore for a moment the media scrum. Forget all the many things which are ridiculous about this. If necessary, allow Republicanism to subside for a bit, and just focus on the noumena of the situation - the bare facts of what is about to happen.

A new child is about to be born. This is wonderful and beautiful, but in no way extraordinary or miraculous. It happens all the time. Move beyond that and see everything else that is about to happen to this particular child and just as a human story it's dizzying.

This child will be front page news the day it is born and the day it dies. It will be one of the most photographed human brings ever. Every stage of its development will be painstakingly followed by billions of onlookers. When they go to school, we'll all know when and where. When they have their first love, the romance will be broadcast, analysed, and dissected.

They have no choice of career. They have nothing to worry about, but little to dream of. Theirs is a life prescribed - a duteous pathway from which it is hard to deviate.

Now remember that this is nothing extraordinary. It is just a new child. Look at the life prescribed and apply it to yourself. Give due weight to the side-effects there of. Is it to be coveted and resented? 

Some people see their lives as a film in their heads, each moment caught by the unseen and often critical director in their minds. Now, imagine that director externalised, with his watching eye and his critical voice, showing you the rushes of your life in real time, and providing an unending and unwanted string of comment on every move you make. That is what the child is instantly heir too - a life in front of the unblinking lense. The concept is dizzying.

There shall be tremendous joy in this life. Few will have two million people cheer down the Mall at you for your very existence, but it is we who also make this child's life not as enviable as might be imagined. 

The child has the love of its parents, its family, a nation and vast swathes of the onlooking world. I wonder of those latter two. Will they also afford the infant the understanding it deserves?

Monday, July 8, 2013

And the Living Rooms of the Nation Exploded into Joy


Ramblings on the madness and mayhem of seeing a Brit win Wimbledon


He and I have one thing in common. Neither Andy Murray or I have any memory of what happened on that last point. I know that he served. I know that the point was awarded to him. I don’t remember if he hit a winner or if Djokovic lost the point. All I remember was jumping up and down, screaming like a lunatic with a number of others, and knowing that the living room I was in was like countless others around the country. A British man had won the Wimbledon title for the first time in 77 years.

Lord knows how many millions – how many hundreds of millions – had dreamt of this moment: the moment where, by hook or by crook, a British man would be “All England Lawn Tennis Club Single Handed Champion of the World”, as the trophy proclaims. No-one – not one person – could have known what it would be like to be alive when the final ball crashed into the net (Djokovic did hit it into the net - I checked). It was perhaps the single greatest moment of sport I have ever experienced. Better than any of the partisan footballing triumphs I have seen. Better (just) than the Ashes being reclaimed in 2005. I can only imagine that England finally getting over its paradoxical sense of entitlement and inferiority, before actually fighting to claim the Football “Coupe de Monde”, and then doing so, could top this.

Do you want a match report? Look elsewhere – I can tell you very little. It was a match of high quality, even if (thankfully) Novak Djokovic did not bring his superlative, very, best game. The rallies were extraordinary. These two are capable of doing things with a racquet that defy belief. When a point looks almost certainly lost, they see opportunity, They are deservedly the best players in the world, and any encounter is instantly going to be classic. It was extraordinary, and there were countless moments when my comrades and I had to say “Fair play to Djokovic”.

However, I cannot tell you what happened in sufficient detail. It was not a match one remembered in detail. It was a living, breathing thing that one experienced. The question was not “What’s the score?” The question was “How’s he doing?” Was he ahead? Was he behind? Numbers like 6-4, 7-5 and 6-4 again meant nothing. It was all about being there, in flesh or in spirit, and being absorbed.

There was no greater example of this than the final game. Murray had three championship points. Three! Surely, this was the time. Surely, there was nothing that could stop this now. We all believed. It would be blasphemy not to have faith. Nevertheless, one-by-one, the points slipped away and suddenly we no longer believed that the 77-year wait was about to end. Rather, we believed that the most astonishing sporting collapse could be about to happen. That from the most invincible position, the Scotsman might produce a calamity that even the England cricket team would be incapable of.

However, he somehow survived and then, somehow, won in a manner that Goran Ivanisevic might have thought a little risky. God knows how, but he did it. He bloody did it, and a nation roared with joy.


The relief was terrific and it is a memory that was instantly immortal, but, obviously, Wimbledon has blown it. They don’t have a next series. Like when a TV show answers the “Will-they-won’t-they?” with “They will”, there will never be the same height of interest. We should all sidle off now. However, I sense that we’ll come back for more. After all, did you know that by 2014 we’ll have been waiting for one year for a Wimbledon champion?

Sunday, July 7, 2013

The Sun on the Horizon

Surely, I have been dreaming.
Which way is west?
Which is east?
All I see is the sun on the horizon.
Does it rise, or does it fall?

Say it rises:
What glory awaits when that red turns to blue?
We shall see the ocean from the height of the hills,
And beauty in a blade of grass,
And dance and sing and play
And play
And play,
As lovers smell roses in the garden.

Say it falls,
And all turns to dark.
What glories still await.
A canopy of stars, swirling in the cool of the moon,
Shall sit atop the madness of our night –
A madness of laughter in the forest
As friends join hands to walk toward the return of the dawn.

The sun still hangs on the horizon,
Neither ending nor beginning -
Simply a herald of whichever glory is to come.

The Quiet Rivalry

How Murray and Djokovic slowly but surely became the greatest rivalry in tennis

It is the final we wanted: the World Number One versus the World Number Two. Whereas in the recent past we may have ached for another instalment in the Federer-Nadal saga, now we crave more and more of Djokovic-Murray, a rivalry which has very quietly become one of the fiercest and most compelling in sport.

It began when they were children. Murray is seven days older than Djokovic, and the two competed against each other on the Juniors’ circuit. Their styles naturally lead to lengthy matches. Both are supremely good defensive players, but with a brutal aggression that they can call upon. Both have outrageous shotmaking ability. Crucially, both never give up on a point. As such, their matches feature numerous spectacular rallies.

It was Djokovic who reached his tennis maturity first, winning the Australian Open in 2008. However, it wasn’t until the early years of this decade that the two began to meet each other regularly in big matches. Their first Grand Slam meeting was also their first Grand Slam final against each other, as they fought for the 2011 Australian Open title. Murray was in his second consecutive final at the tournament, having been beaten by Roger Federer in the previous year. Djokovic was a former champion trying to reclaim his title. Sound familiar?

The match underlined Djokovic’s greater experience and confidence at the highest level. He defeated Murray in 2 hours and 39 minutes, 6-4, 6-2. 6-3. It was a comprehensive victory, and Murray’s third Grand Slam final defeat. He had not won a set in any of them. Djokovic, meanwhile, went on to complete a 43-match winning streak and have his most successful year to date, winning Wimbledon and the US Open later in the year.

At the start of 2012, the pair had a rematch, this time in the Australian Open Semi-Finals. The match was a bona fide classic and announced to the world that Murray was a pinhead away from being a Grand Slam champion. However, it was Djokovic who once again prevailed, this time in five gruelling sets, beating a valiant Murray 6-3, 3-6, 6-7 (4-7), 6-1, 7-5 in 4 hours and 50 minutes. Djokovic went on to top that unbelievable show of endurance by beating Rafael Nadal in the final, the longest Grand Slam final in history (5 hours and 53 minutes).

Djokovic lost in the French Open final to Nadal a few months later. Had he won that match he would have held all four majors at the same time. Murray made the Wimbledon final, the first British man to do so in 74 years, but was beaten by Roger Federer. This was the final piece in the puzzle for Murray, who became a complete player after that tear-stained disappointment. He returned to Wimbledon a month afterwards for the Olympics, comfortably beating Djokovic in the Semis, 7-5, 7-5, before avenging his earlier defeat against Federer.

Murray went to the US Open as many people’s favourite to win the tournament, and he made it to the final where he faced Djokovic. The match was another classic. Murray ground out a two set lead, before Djokovic characteristically fought back. At 2 sets all, Murray took a loo break where he thought of all his previous disappointments and swore that it was not about to happen again. It worked, and he took the final set, winning the match 7-6 (12-10), 7-5, 2-6, 3-6, 6-2, in 4 hours and 52 minutes.

Djokovic was, as always, magnanimous in defeat, but he was hurt by it, and he responded in the best way possible. He defeated Murray in their subsequent three meetings, including this year’s Australian Open final, 6-7 (2-7), 7-6 (7-3), 6-3, 6-2.

When they walk out onto Centre Court this afternoon, they shall do so as equals. It is folly to pick a favourite between them. It should be a long match and has all of the ingredients of a classic, and there should be many more of these to come.

Djokovic-Murray Career Stats
Grand Slam Titles
Djokovic 6-1 Murray
Career Titles
Djokovic 37-27 Murray
Head-to-Head
Djokovic 11-7 Murray
Grand Slam Head-to-Head
Djokovic 3-1 Murray
Grass Head-to-Head
Djokovic 0-1 Murray